Wow, it's looking like this coming month will have me more focused than ever on my weight loss and fitness endeavors. On Wednesday I will be joining Weight Watchers and going to my first meeting. This "Lose for Good" charity that they're doing is a great reason for me to get involved with the program. I've been working very hard on losing weight and this is an amazing way for my efforts to pay off.
The ladies at the Sisterhood are also having their own challenge. It's called shrink for good. Basically you buy an equal amount of non-perishible foods to the weight you lose every week and at the end of the challenge donate it.
That's even more incentive. Weight loss and fitness are usually such a personal thing. Something you choose to do for whatever reasons you have for yourself. Sometimes people do it for themselves and their families. Mommy/Daddy wants to be there to see their kids grow up and graduate from college and get married. They realize that thier health issues negatively affect their family life.
But to spread that even beyond the boundaries of your front door. To the people who you may never see but are needing. I mean, I find myself throwing away food simply so that I am not tempted to eat it. How unfair is that. America truly has an economy that partially centered around waste. Larger portions than anyone could/SHOULD consume are offered to us at every turn. Bulk stores where you buy containers of food huge enough that they perish in the back of your cabinet...forgotten until you have a craving and realize that it's long expired. We go to these stores and buy these portions because we're constantly told that we are SAVING! Saving WHAT??
This is a chance to in my mind save ourselves and save each other. A chance to make ourselves and those who have less power and less opportunity that we, healthier. In the same breath a chance to raise awareness about what is going on that so many people have turned a blind eye to. I, too, am guilty. I often forget that there is a world outside my immediate reality. But when an opportunity comes up to open my arms and heart to strangers I do try to do what I can.
I wish all of the people who are participating luck and thank both Weight Watchers and the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans for an opportunity to pass the love on and pay it forward.
Lastly, today is the beginning of the EA Sports Active challenge. I am finishing up day 20 of my current challenge and beginning a new challenge to do with these ladies immediately after. I have to say that this program has made the most difference in my body. I feel stronger and leaner, not just lighter, than I have in quite some time. I plan to do the 30 day challenge at least three times to see where it will take me!
Today's weight 173.6
Monday, August 31, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
30 Day Challenge Profile
Name: Bleu
Age: 33
Hometown: Jupiter, FL
Family: Myself, Hubby and Daisy Doggy
1) Complete the following sentence – “When I look in the mirror I see…myself, finally appearing from under the flab of a few years of abusing my body"
2) What exercise do you take? What’s your current level of fitness? Right now I'm doing the WiiFit for an hour in the mornings and EASActive in the evenings. When it cools down a bit I will start cycling again in the evenings. My current level of fitness is I guess a bit below average, I am definitely overweight, but getting into decent shape overall.
3) How do you relax? Usually watching anime.
4) Do you watch your weight? Do I ever. And over the past few years it's been doing a very schizophrenic dance that is almost entertainining. The "Look how high I can go" Cirque du Soleil soar has to stop though.
5) What’s your favorite body part? My shoulders/upper arms. When I started losing weight and exercising, they were the first part of my body to regain some elegance in form.
6) What’s your least favorite body part? Some part of my butt. Although, there's so much butt that I can't really figure out which part has gone so drastically wrong.
7) What’s your favorite way to workout? Right now the Wii. I love going to the gym but I can't always get there so my memberships tend to rot.
Its time to work out, we’re most likely to find you decked out in? Embarrassed to say my underwear and a sports bra. I hate clothing and usually only wear it to make other people comfortable but if I'm in my own home, I just let it all hang out. Sadly, hang it does.
9) You’re due to workout, but it’s pouring rain. What do you do? Workout anyway. What I'm doing right now is indoors so I don't have to worry about the weather slowing me down. And if the rain stops it might be cool enough to go for a ride on my bike.
10) What’s the one item you wouldn’t be without when working out? My music. I've tried working out to what's playing on the Wii, or what's playing at the gym and I find that I just don't push myself as hard as when I'm really in the groove from my tunes.
11) What do you hope to get from the 30 Day Challenge? Hoping my ass will follow my arms and shape the hell up!!
12) What are you apprehensive about going in? All of the lower body workouts, I've been having a little trouble with my knees since I've started the program.
13) How will you reward yourself after the challenge? You know, I don't ever really think about rewarding myself. I look at taking care of myself as a reward in itself.
14) Complete the following sentence – “I’m Active for … the way it makes me feel. I feel alive in a way that I haven't in a long time”
Age: 33
Hometown: Jupiter, FL
Family: Myself, Hubby and Daisy Doggy
1) Complete the following sentence – “When I look in the mirror I see…myself, finally appearing from under the flab of a few years of abusing my body"
2) What exercise do you take? What’s your current level of fitness? Right now I'm doing the WiiFit for an hour in the mornings and EASActive in the evenings. When it cools down a bit I will start cycling again in the evenings. My current level of fitness is I guess a bit below average, I am definitely overweight, but getting into decent shape overall.
3) How do you relax? Usually watching anime.
4) Do you watch your weight? Do I ever. And over the past few years it's been doing a very schizophrenic dance that is almost entertainining. The "Look how high I can go" Cirque du Soleil soar has to stop though.
5) What’s your favorite body part? My shoulders/upper arms. When I started losing weight and exercising, they were the first part of my body to regain some elegance in form.
6) What’s your least favorite body part? Some part of my butt. Although, there's so much butt that I can't really figure out which part has gone so drastically wrong.
7) What’s your favorite way to workout? Right now the Wii. I love going to the gym but I can't always get there so my memberships tend to rot.
Its time to work out, we’re most likely to find you decked out in? Embarrassed to say my underwear and a sports bra. I hate clothing and usually only wear it to make other people comfortable but if I'm in my own home, I just let it all hang out. Sadly, hang it does.
9) You’re due to workout, but it’s pouring rain. What do you do? Workout anyway. What I'm doing right now is indoors so I don't have to worry about the weather slowing me down. And if the rain stops it might be cool enough to go for a ride on my bike.
10) What’s the one item you wouldn’t be without when working out? My music. I've tried working out to what's playing on the Wii, or what's playing at the gym and I find that I just don't push myself as hard as when I'm really in the groove from my tunes.
11) What do you hope to get from the 30 Day Challenge? Hoping my ass will follow my arms and shape the hell up!!
12) What are you apprehensive about going in? All of the lower body workouts, I've been having a little trouble with my knees since I've started the program.
13) How will you reward yourself after the challenge? You know, I don't ever really think about rewarding myself. I look at taking care of myself as a reward in itself.
14) Complete the following sentence – “I’m Active for … the way it makes me feel. I feel alive in a way that I haven't in a long time”
Weigh-In Wednesday
What a mini catastrophe. My scale chose today to crap out on me. I have to buy a new one after work and get a real reading on where I am.
It's weigh in day over at the Sisterhood and WHY TODAY?
First I want to congratulate the winners of the Weight Watchers, Lose for Good giveaway. I hope those ladies enjoy their spoils. I am actually thinking about joining up, the ladies in my husbands family go every Wednesday so it would be a nice "Girl's Night" thing to do.
I got several readings from the scale this morning ranging from 173.8 to 175 pounds. I would say that means I've definitely gained, but how much? Lets average it out and say I gained a pound which would put me at 174.4. I will update with tomorrows weight on an accurate scale.
I'm really not surprised that I gained after my shenanigans with food this past weekend. I am also not discouraged because a little weight gain is bound to happen now and then. It just does. I know that I'm on the right path and as long as I'm feeling great and making efforts to do the right things, I'm satisfied.
I'm going to try and be "good" this weekend coming up, work hard all week with my workouts, and hopefully have a happier conversation with the scale next week.
Good luck all!!!
Last week: 173.4lb
This week: 174.4lb
It's weigh in day over at the Sisterhood and WHY TODAY?
First I want to congratulate the winners of the Weight Watchers, Lose for Good giveaway. I hope those ladies enjoy their spoils. I am actually thinking about joining up, the ladies in my husbands family go every Wednesday so it would be a nice "Girl's Night" thing to do.
I got several readings from the scale this morning ranging from 173.8 to 175 pounds. I would say that means I've definitely gained, but how much? Lets average it out and say I gained a pound which would put me at 174.4. I will update with tomorrows weight on an accurate scale.
I'm really not surprised that I gained after my shenanigans with food this past weekend. I am also not discouraged because a little weight gain is bound to happen now and then. It just does. I know that I'm on the right path and as long as I'm feeling great and making efforts to do the right things, I'm satisfied.
I'm going to try and be "good" this weekend coming up, work hard all week with my workouts, and hopefully have a happier conversation with the scale next week.
Good luck all!!!
Last week: 173.4lb
This week: 174.4lb
Monday, August 24, 2009
True Confessions Monday
It's that day again at the Sisterhood. Time to fess up to my transgressions. All in all I had a pretty good weekend.
Friday night we usually go out for dinner. I had a feeling that I would be having a "couple" of beers so I figured I'd do my evening workout before we ate. I took a little longer that anticipated, so our choices were narrowed down to bar food. We decided on Chili's because it's closest. Now, I will have to tell you that although my husband has been unbelievably supportive in my fitness efforts, he is an alcohol enabler. So before we even headed out for dinner he made a run to the gas station to stock the fridge with beer.
Chili's: Texas Cheese Fries...omg those are insanely good. I had them without the bacon of course. A margarita. Two draft beers. Quesadilla Explosion Salad. I ate less than half of everything but I know I really piled on some calories with the alcohol alone!!
Saturday was my cousin-in-law's birthday so I attended a little family get together for him. His mother is an amazing cook. When I'm at her home I not only feel obligated to eat what she prepares (especially since she makes a little extra effort to have something for me as a vegetarian), it's always delish and I do over-do it sometimes. AND I had three glasses of wine. So that was another diet FAIL day. I did both morning and evening exercise so I feel good about that. I usually skip exercise on days that I go out.
Sunday we went out with the birthday boy on a snorkel/dive trip. Poseidon smiled down upon him and he went home with two lobsters. We left so early in the morning that I didn't get my first exercise session in but I did snorkel a bit so that was something. Evening exercise I did and wow was it tough.
I'm not sure how things are going to pan out when I weigh in this week but, hey sometimes you gotta have fun and did I ever.
Friday night we usually go out for dinner. I had a feeling that I would be having a "couple" of beers so I figured I'd do my evening workout before we ate. I took a little longer that anticipated, so our choices were narrowed down to bar food. We decided on Chili's because it's closest. Now, I will have to tell you that although my husband has been unbelievably supportive in my fitness efforts, he is an alcohol enabler. So before we even headed out for dinner he made a run to the gas station to stock the fridge with beer.
Chili's: Texas Cheese Fries...omg those are insanely good. I had them without the bacon of course. A margarita. Two draft beers. Quesadilla Explosion Salad. I ate less than half of everything but I know I really piled on some calories with the alcohol alone!!
Saturday was my cousin-in-law's birthday so I attended a little family get together for him. His mother is an amazing cook. When I'm at her home I not only feel obligated to eat what she prepares (especially since she makes a little extra effort to have something for me as a vegetarian), it's always delish and I do over-do it sometimes. AND I had three glasses of wine. So that was another diet FAIL day. I did both morning and evening exercise so I feel good about that. I usually skip exercise on days that I go out.
Sunday we went out with the birthday boy on a snorkel/dive trip. Poseidon smiled down upon him and he went home with two lobsters. We left so early in the morning that I didn't get my first exercise session in but I did snorkel a bit so that was something. Evening exercise I did and wow was it tough.
I'm not sure how things are going to pan out when I weigh in this week but, hey sometimes you gotta have fun and did I ever.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Vegas or Diving or Vegas or Diving?
Okay so I'm really psyched about learning how to dive. I'm absolutely in love with snorkeling and want to take it farther. I wanted to ask for dive lessons for my birthday and then I would be able to get gear for Christmas.
Now, there is a dilemma. I am absolutely in LOVE LOVE LOVE with Maynard James Keenan. He is the lead singer for the bands Tool, A Perfect Circle, and Puscifer. All three bands I love for what they are. They are so unique and I have so much respect for his creative abilities and endeavors. I have been trying to see Tool live for years now but it seems that every time they are playing near me some life nonsense gets in the way of me going to the show.
Puscifer is playing in Vegas in October. What a trip that would be, huh? Go to Vegas, see an amazing band play!! Just thinking about it gives me chills.
The only thing is that I know that we can't afford dive lessons AND a trip to Vegas so which do I choose. My life can't be bad at all if what I am currently agonizing over is which fun fun fun thing to do in a couple months.
I need to do some serious soul searching on this one, lol.
Now, there is a dilemma. I am absolutely in LOVE LOVE LOVE with Maynard James Keenan. He is the lead singer for the bands Tool, A Perfect Circle, and Puscifer. All three bands I love for what they are. They are so unique and I have so much respect for his creative abilities and endeavors. I have been trying to see Tool live for years now but it seems that every time they are playing near me some life nonsense gets in the way of me going to the show.
Puscifer is playing in Vegas in October. What a trip that would be, huh? Go to Vegas, see an amazing band play!! Just thinking about it gives me chills.
The only thing is that I know that we can't afford dive lessons AND a trip to Vegas so which do I choose. My life can't be bad at all if what I am currently agonizing over is which fun fun fun thing to do in a couple months.
I need to do some serious soul searching on this one, lol.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Weigh in Wednesday
I'm pretty new to blogging so you guys are going to have to bear with me while I get into the swing of how it all works. I came upon the http://shrinkingjeans.net/ website a couple of weeks ago. Since I started my weight loss and fitness endeavor I have kept it all very personal and talking mostly to my husband about my challenges and triumphs. He's one of those "I love you and you're beautiful no matter what" guys and I appreciate that but it's a bit demotivating. So, I started looking around for some inspiration.
I want to keep going, I can keep going, and I WILL keep going. I've struggled with my weight since I was a teenager and in my 20s my body was in amazing shape through alot of hard work and exercise. I know what it takes for ME to be in shape and that's what it is all about. It's about ME. Making choices to be healthier and feel better because of the positive impact it will have on my life. I don't want to ever have to hide in a dark bedroom again faking sick because I dont want to go to some event where I will feel self-conscious.
The ladies on this site are amazing, each and every one of them. The members as well who's blogs I have visited. Everyone has thier own situation, problems, goals, strategies, etc. And I tell you it really makes me happy to see that there are so many other women out there who have pounded thier fist and said "That's it, I'm taking control now". It's a slow and difficult journey to any goal but I'm just happy I have found these people to look over at and see that they are sweating it out too.
One of the things that I've started doing lately is every morning I take a good look at my naked body. And I tell myself a few positive things about it. I don't let myself focus on anything negative, no worrying over stretch marks, fretting over cellulite, poking something that is hanging that shouldn't be. Nope, there are enough hours in the day to notice all of that stuff. But a good 60 seconds a day of self praise has made it easier for me to be comfortable with the body that I have and the body I will have when I reach my goal weight.
So it's time to weigh in.
Last week: 175.0 lbs
Today: 173.4 lbs
That gives me a net LOSS of 1.6 pounds for the week and my total loss so far 33.6 pounds.
Good luck for the week coming guys!!!!!
I want to keep going, I can keep going, and I WILL keep going. I've struggled with my weight since I was a teenager and in my 20s my body was in amazing shape through alot of hard work and exercise. I know what it takes for ME to be in shape and that's what it is all about. It's about ME. Making choices to be healthier and feel better because of the positive impact it will have on my life. I don't want to ever have to hide in a dark bedroom again faking sick because I dont want to go to some event where I will feel self-conscious.
The ladies on this site are amazing, each and every one of them. The members as well who's blogs I have visited. Everyone has thier own situation, problems, goals, strategies, etc. And I tell you it really makes me happy to see that there are so many other women out there who have pounded thier fist and said "That's it, I'm taking control now". It's a slow and difficult journey to any goal but I'm just happy I have found these people to look over at and see that they are sweating it out too.
One of the things that I've started doing lately is every morning I take a good look at my naked body. And I tell myself a few positive things about it. I don't let myself focus on anything negative, no worrying over stretch marks, fretting over cellulite, poking something that is hanging that shouldn't be. Nope, there are enough hours in the day to notice all of that stuff. But a good 60 seconds a day of self praise has made it easier for me to be comfortable with the body that I have and the body I will have when I reach my goal weight.
So it's time to weigh in.
Last week: 175.0 lbs
Today: 173.4 lbs
That gives me a net LOSS of 1.6 pounds for the week and my total loss so far 33.6 pounds.
Good luck for the week coming guys!!!!!
Monday, August 17, 2009
True Confessions Monday
I had to work this weekend so I didn't have much time to be bad. On Friday night the cable guy came to install my new internet and it was such a hassle that I told my husband to go get a six-pack while I nuked something horrible and full of salt and preservatives.
* 5 Beers on Friday night. (I'll have to try with olives next time thx Melissa of the Sisterhood)
* Bad food on Friday night.
On Saturday after I got off work at 10:00PM the guys were here playing Madden NFL 2010. Mind you I did stand in line on Thursday night at Midnight for the grand release of the game with my husband. I quickly unhooked the Wii from the television downstairs and set it up in the bedroom where I have maybe 8 square feet to move around and did my workout. Unfortunately I didn't get everything set up in time so my workout lasted until 12:05AM which counted for Sunday instead of Saturday.
I've already taken a few unauthorized rest day and refuse to fail this challenge so I set the Wii clock back two hours and repeated the workout in order to get credit for Saturday.
*I may have caused some sort of blip in the space time continuum.
On a good note that caused me to double my workout time on Saturday and I have to admit that since I've started using the EAS Active I've been feeling alot stronger. I've even added a few cycles of running into my Wii Fit workouts in the mornings.
I smoke less when I have to work on the weekend, but more when I drink alcohol so I kinda evened out there. This week I'm going to try and keep it to less than 10 cigarettes a day.
And the most glorious of all events, I slept in until noon on Saturday.
* 5 Beers on Friday night. (I'll have to try with olives next time thx Melissa of the Sisterhood)
* Bad food on Friday night.
On Saturday after I got off work at 10:00PM the guys were here playing Madden NFL 2010. Mind you I did stand in line on Thursday night at Midnight for the grand release of the game with my husband. I quickly unhooked the Wii from the television downstairs and set it up in the bedroom where I have maybe 8 square feet to move around and did my workout. Unfortunately I didn't get everything set up in time so my workout lasted until 12:05AM which counted for Sunday instead of Saturday.
I've already taken a few unauthorized rest day and refuse to fail this challenge so I set the Wii clock back two hours and repeated the workout in order to get credit for Saturday.
*I may have caused some sort of blip in the space time continuum.
On a good note that caused me to double my workout time on Saturday and I have to admit that since I've started using the EAS Active I've been feeling alot stronger. I've even added a few cycles of running into my Wii Fit workouts in the mornings.
I smoke less when I have to work on the weekend, but more when I drink alcohol so I kinda evened out there. This week I'm going to try and keep it to less than 10 cigarettes a day.
And the most glorious of all events, I slept in until noon on Saturday.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Day Off Anyone?
It's Sunday and I work two jobs. One at a chain pharmacy that I'm sure you all know/visit. That's just for a little extra cash. Usually I get at least one weekend day off but had to switch with someone because I was scheduled to work on Thursday but cannot. I have an appointment with an accountant. So my last day off was last Sunday and I will be working either/both jobs straight thru to Saturday coming up.
Working 12 days in a row with some of them being 12+ hour days is just another one of those things that makes sticking to my diet/exercise plan difficult. I am exhausted, no time to prepare meals, minimal sleep, housework gets behind. But I do it because my husband and I have very expensive recreational activities.
This year I want to learn to scuba dive. My husband is an avid diver and until I started getting into shape, I will admit to you that part of my hesitance to try it has been my aversion to swimsuits and spandex. I know it's silly and I am glad to be able to finally feel better enough about myself to overcome that obstacle. I mean I have been living in South Florida for almost two years, merely 2 miles from the beach and I hadn't gone in the daytime until this spring.
My birthday is coming up next month so I am hoping for diving lessons from the birthday fairy. This should hopefully be the beginning of a new type of adventure for me.
Working 12 days in a row with some of them being 12+ hour days is just another one of those things that makes sticking to my diet/exercise plan difficult. I am exhausted, no time to prepare meals, minimal sleep, housework gets behind. But I do it because my husband and I have very expensive recreational activities.
This year I want to learn to scuba dive. My husband is an avid diver and until I started getting into shape, I will admit to you that part of my hesitance to try it has been my aversion to swimsuits and spandex. I know it's silly and I am glad to be able to finally feel better enough about myself to overcome that obstacle. I mean I have been living in South Florida for almost two years, merely 2 miles from the beach and I hadn't gone in the daytime until this spring.
My birthday is coming up next month so I am hoping for diving lessons from the birthday fairy. This should hopefully be the beginning of a new type of adventure for me.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
The Cookie
So I went in for my usual afternoon smoothie. My husband asked me to pick him up a sandwich and the guys in the cafe got a kick out of the question "What do you have that's good for people that eat meat?". When I was being rung up I was told that I could take a bag of chips, a banana or a cookie with the sandwich.
I get sandwiches there maybe twice a week for myself and I've never been offered a cookie. Sugar cookies are just about my favourite and so I reasoned that we had chips at home and there was a banana in my smoothie so I would go for the cookie and hope for my husband to not want it.
We get our respective lunches and go home to visit the doggie. We munch, sip and chit chat and then my husband crumples up his bag. He is one to inhale his meals so you never really know which item he is chewing.
"What happened to the cookie?"
"I ate it"
I hid my disappointment and we went on with our day. After dinner I brought up the cookie again and he told me that he didn't really want the cookie but felt as though he should eat it so that I wouldn't have to.
Well, thank you very much sir for saving me from myself. I can appreciate his support on my diet journey but it's been months since I've had a cookie and it's a bit of mental torture to have had one so close to in my mouth.
I get sandwiches there maybe twice a week for myself and I've never been offered a cookie. Sugar cookies are just about my favourite and so I reasoned that we had chips at home and there was a banana in my smoothie so I would go for the cookie and hope for my husband to not want it.
We get our respective lunches and go home to visit the doggie. We munch, sip and chit chat and then my husband crumples up his bag. He is one to inhale his meals so you never really know which item he is chewing.
"What happened to the cookie?"
"I ate it"
I hid my disappointment and we went on with our day. After dinner I brought up the cookie again and he told me that he didn't really want the cookie but felt as though he should eat it so that I wouldn't have to.
Well, thank you very much sir for saving me from myself. I can appreciate his support on my diet journey but it's been months since I've had a cookie and it's a bit of mental torture to have had one so close to in my mouth.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
A little about me.
This week, sadly the scale has gone up every morning. I've been hungrier than usual and unfortunately I have some snacks in the house.
Today's weight: 175lb
Last Week: 173lb
My dream goal weight is 150lb, although I would be happy with 160lb. I at the very least use Wii Fit every morning and have also begun the EA Sports Active 30 day challenge last week.
I guess I can give some background on myself and my weight situation.
Six years ago I weighted 135lb and was a semi-professional dancer. I got married in 2003 to an Army guy who was sent to Iraq a couple of times. The emotional stress of all of that skyrocketed my weight up to about 215lb.
When he was discharged in 2006 we moved to FL and I began my weightloss journey. It was slow going but with diet and excercise I managed to get my weight back down to 180lb.
In October of 2008 I discovered that I was pregnant. Then in February 2009, I was diagnosed with Graves' Disease. That started a rollercoaster of health issues that led them to medicate me to slow down my thyroid. The new medication plus the pregnancy made me balloon up to 210lb within 3 months.
On April 1, 2009 the baby's heartbeat stopped and I lost her. A very tragic end to a difficult pregnancy.
That event led me to a new outlook on my life. I have spent almost 6 years of my life not feeling like I am myself. I was once a very creative, active and adventurous person. Stress, anxiety and self-consciousness led me to be a miserable shell of myself.
I WANT TO BE ME AGAIN!!!!
So, one month after the still-birth, I weighed in at 207lb and decided that feeling better about myself was a goal that I had to focus on in order to be able to feel good about the world around me. I started working out with the Wii Fit and so far have had amazing results.
I have a long way to go with health and other issues, but I'm working my way back to myself!
Today's weight: 175lb
Last Week: 173lb
My dream goal weight is 150lb, although I would be happy with 160lb. I at the very least use Wii Fit every morning and have also begun the EA Sports Active 30 day challenge last week.
I guess I can give some background on myself and my weight situation.
Six years ago I weighted 135lb and was a semi-professional dancer. I got married in 2003 to an Army guy who was sent to Iraq a couple of times. The emotional stress of all of that skyrocketed my weight up to about 215lb.
When he was discharged in 2006 we moved to FL and I began my weightloss journey. It was slow going but with diet and excercise I managed to get my weight back down to 180lb.
In October of 2008 I discovered that I was pregnant. Then in February 2009, I was diagnosed with Graves' Disease. That started a rollercoaster of health issues that led them to medicate me to slow down my thyroid. The new medication plus the pregnancy made me balloon up to 210lb within 3 months.
On April 1, 2009 the baby's heartbeat stopped and I lost her. A very tragic end to a difficult pregnancy.
That event led me to a new outlook on my life. I have spent almost 6 years of my life not feeling like I am myself. I was once a very creative, active and adventurous person. Stress, anxiety and self-consciousness led me to be a miserable shell of myself.
I WANT TO BE ME AGAIN!!!!
So, one month after the still-birth, I weighed in at 207lb and decided that feeling better about myself was a goal that I had to focus on in order to be able to feel good about the world around me. I started working out with the Wii Fit and so far have had amazing results.
I have a long way to go with health and other issues, but I'm working my way back to myself!
Shrink for Good
